These two days have been pretty poor for med­i­ta­tion. Yes­ter­day I was think­ing of med­i­tat­ing when I got home from work, before I went out to din­ner with my par­ents, but as it turned out, we met up on my way home from work. That pretty much put paid to my idea of med­i­tat­ing, though I did man­age a poor ten or eleven min­utes just before mid­night. Yeah, an hour after my pro­posed bed­time for the week…

Today I’ve come home from work dog tired, and I’ve been partly sort­ing things out ready for attend­ing my cousin’s wed­ding tomor­row, and partly pro­cras­ti­nat­ing about sort­ing things out for my cousins wed­ding, and pro­cras­ti­nat­ing about med­i­ta­tion. I finally sat down on the zafu at around 10:30 PM, far too late when I’m tired to get much in the way of use­ful med­i­ta­tion “work” done, it seems.

I had some moments of still­ness, when I man­aged to keep my eyes open and my back straight for long enough to keep me from doz­ing, but not much.

Tomor­row I’m going to do what I should have done these last two days: med­i­tate in the morn­ing. I’ve had enough time, I just don’t tra­di­tion­ally med­i­tate in the morn­ing on week­days, so it’s hard to crow­bar it into my rou­tine. Part of the nor­mal rou­tine — whether it’s doing my Morn­ing Pages, or read­ing my RSS feeds, or check­ing my mail, will have to give, and that makes things harder.

But tomor­row morn­ing, I’ll try. I’m off work, and the wedding’s not until the after­noon, so I will at least have plenty of time, unlike the last cou­ple of days, but I’m going to try doing it first thing, like I’d have to on a work­day, just to see if I can do it.

I’ll let you know…