I’ve done two dumb things since the last time I blogged.
The first was doing the Bristol Half Marathon yesterday. Now, don’t get me wrong, running a half marathon is a very rewarding, fantastic thing to do. And I raised a chunk of money for charity. But believe me, my thigh muscles think it was a pretty dumb thing to do. Despite dunking myself in a couple of very long, hot Radox baths, and going for some walks to try to stop myself from going completely solid, they’re still complaining.
When I came back from my last walk, climbing painfully down my basement steps, my legs seemed as stiff as they’d been when I climbed painfully up those same steps on the way out.
Which leads me to the second dumb thing I did today, which was cooking steak. Again, not too dumb per se — though some Buddhists tend toward the vegetarian, I’ve not looked too closely at that bit of my life yet — but dumb for a different reason. Because I kept the kitchen door open just too long, and managed to set off the fire alarm for the whole house — all five flats.
It’s a loud fire alarm. It demands your attention in no uncertain terms, and you don’t really want to be the guy who cries “wolf” and gets faced with peeved people from the other four flats.
So, I was straight out my front door, up the stairs, and into the communal hallway above, twisting that “reset” key on the alarm box in about twenty seconds flat.
It was only when I’d got back down the steps and closed my front door that I realised what I’d done. Yes, just run up and down those same steps I’d hobbled gingerly up and down earlier on, clinging onto the railings and doing that “get halfway down then drop the last few inches with a wince” kind of stair-climbing.
So. That was my concrete reminder for the day that even physical suffering can be all in the mind — or at the very least, if you’re not actively clinging to it, you can completely forget it’s there, not even notice it.
I wonder if I were truly mindful, would I feel that pain in my legs? Or would I realise that three quarters of the pain was my own expectation of suffering, a mental projection on a minor physical ailment, that in other circumstances I wouldn’t even notice?
Something to ponder, anyway.
Today’s meditation: too late, and too tired. But heck, it’s the day after a half-marathon. I think being tired is allowed.